The Abused

How could I have known?
I was just a kid-
About how wrong it was for me
All the things you did
I remember, years ago
When in my bed you crept,
And held my head against your chest
Like this, the whole night, we slept
How could I have known, it wouldn’t
Stop there-
How much pain could one cause
Whom once,
I held dear?
I remember, moons ago, all the
Pain and hurt
As your fingers found and fondled
Things-
Hidden by pants and shirt
And listened did I, when you said
To never speak of this
Cause you said, if someone found out
At me, they’d be pissed

How could I have known?
When at night, in my pillow I did cry
That all those words you said to me
Were naught but big fat lies
Their anger wouldn’t lie with me
It was fear that made you say
The things that you had-
Cause you didn’t want to get
Caught
Doing all these, things, bad-
The silence I kept, it did cease
For no longer would I keep my
Peace,
And in that courtroom
I did watch
As you lied through your teeth
And I watched
As the judge did let you
Go free-

My innocence has long been lost
But at what price? At what cost?
For you to enjoy your perverse pleasures?
Doing harm to whom you called
Your
“Little Treasure”?

I hope you die a million times
And a million more-
But eternal hell nor all these deaths
Could ever settle the score

I look at me
And all I see
Is a body ruined by yours.

Though time and years will come and go
And memory will fade-
Never will I forget
The things you did
And
The price, I
Had to
Pay